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forgot to add...i felt like an idiot today...

Ayyy....econs essay was so screwed up. macro policies were liek EVERYWHERE?!?! freaking wages, nia, keynesian and trade din come out at all. AT ALL. wth. these four topics were my best. really THE best. end up was macro policies?! ergh. two questions soemmore. did one on central prob 25 marks, started doing at 4pm only when 4.15 was the end of the paper. WHY? cuz i spent so much time doing bloody macro policies. so much to write so little time, was so stressful. whatever. screw the paper.

went to shit on 17 nov 6.30pm...

i have a great story to tell. but i have no one to tell to. haha. everynight i will just tell myself the story...adding more parts to it each day. so the story is not really a story. sometimes i think wo zheng de shi mei shi zhao shi xiang, mei shi zhao shi zuo...wth. but jus now on bus...tot of a perfect beginning for the story. haha. whatever. anw maths paper 1 was easy, but i screwed it up! aye...must chiong paper2 alr. jia you jia you.

i am such a screwed up girl man. wassssup with myself. haha.

went to shit on 11 nov 12.28am...

damn long nv blog alr. had two exams so far. ok not really exams yet. Phy prac n gp was okie. hopefully i can get at least a b3. realised those pple ard me had alr taken like 4 papers so far...ya...all the chem pple. Wonder how did their papers go this morning. feeling rather unprepared for maths tmr. dono why. maybe cuz i had been long suited to neglecting maths n concentrating fm. now without fm...i am still behaving like this. it's a bad thing. luckily tmr's paper is in the afternoon. I am bound to have a sleepless night...jus like how it was the night before gp. ay...still feeling v unprepared. hav not been doin maths for the past three days. was studying econs like dono what. shit. 24 more hrs to my maths. i better get my ass down to studying maths. really cant wait for exams to b over. am really getting all the panic attacks. sia la...gotta get myself to relax.

went to shit on 8 nov 11.02am...

Sia la...my com is finally finally up!!! can someone pls tell me what is going on in my tag now?!? d/l msn hoping to catch error or grace online...ya to ask bout my tag, but both aren't online. ay nvm. =)

All my blog links are gone. smart me have been trying to recall all the blog urls for the past 20 min. haha...luckily i can remember most of them. nicole's one was hard. haha. sadly, can't recall a couple of interesting blogs. aye nvm...after As den i go slowly find. haha. Anw GRACE IS ONLINE!!! she jus msg me. yay...mystery of my tag board can be answered. haha.yay!! missssss u! where's error?!!? sia la, yi...u have msn notz? =)

one more wk to As. scary scary. physics prac was quite a good start. hope the rest of teh papers will b good too. damnnnnnn scared of GP...next thurs...after that...really will feel a bit better. damn scared of gp. aye.

Anw...damnnnnnn excited bout post As. hahaha. going to 5 places total. first up there's the KL trip. going with eugene, van, jac, adel, jw, james, april, april sis n mum...and miss tey! woah. exciting exciting though it's only KL. Next there are two/three cruise trips...under discussion...KL is confirm but ya cruise to whereever still under discussion. next is thailand! shopping! miss tey n husband may be going too! aye...and next next BINTAN! oooh...our fav place. we jus have to play cranium again!! haha...error spare us ur game? u got to go too...it will be so funnyyy man. =) haha. okok, den either going aust or china with family. but ya china is super cold...blah. mum not really for teh idea of going there so cold. i also. but dad is there working. oh wells. see how lah huh. means i have zero time to learn driving in dec. haha. nvm nvm...must chiong. give tuition too during first wk in dec when i am still in spore...at least earn those few dollars...though it's FEW dollars, u convert to baht or ringgit alr a lot. ay...cant wait for As to b over. i am all for shopping!!!!!!! i cant wait to shop lah. haha.

Ay, Glenda's birthday two days ago. haha, happy birthday girl! hope u did enjoy yourself! =)

blah. miss. k k going to study!!! (woah error is online finally! hahaa...gonna say hi to her! *waves* haha. k k....really gonna chiong tonight. take care pple.

went to shit on 28 oct 11.12pm...

thnx grace and yi (where's error??)...so happy to see the both of u again (HA in my tag). i will kb to grace one...if i really cannot take it. haha like that time dropping fm. the next thing i probably will kb is bout going ntu lah huh. still cant believe i most prob will end up there. ha. anw, there are really some kaobei pple cloning pple in my tag. wonder what's the kick of posting some shit on it?

everyone is not updating now. when everyone updates, i don. when pple don i do. oh well. many many times when i feel strongly bout something...i come up here to blog about it. the next day when i feel less strongly bout it or i feel humji, i take down the entry. ay...so what's the pt of me blogging? i also dono...andi if i try not to talk directly about something, den whats the pt of me blogging? ay, can i ever blog directly n not feel humji for fear of offending pple? ay, nooo. whatever man.

Anw, taking three subs. quite easy to manage. I admit i have been neglecting my physics. gary chan says now no tiem to read thru all ur notes again liaoz...but dono why, somehow i still feel that i need to read thru at least once...i feel super not secure now and whenever i do the papers (he asked us to jus keep doing papers), i was thinking w/o all the knowledge how u do? it's like somehow u know but actually u dono. so guess i m jus gonna read thru once again, heck whatever he says lah. for maths, constantly doing papers. believe it or not, i have nv touch maths papers in the past b4 whenever studying for a test cuz i will always be doing FM papers. guess it's rather a good thing i drop fm. first time touching the maths stuff and realised they r actually not that easy. As for econs, my main aim was to finish reading n memorising all my notes these few days...but dono why everytime i start on a topic, i wld start thinking...am i wasting time doing these? shouldn't i be writing essays practising mcqs (like physics)? argh...rreally dono lah. but seriously, no point in writing essay outlines when i dono the contents of all the econs stuff. i can write outlines, but the contents...totally cannot make it. so i dono whether i am on the right track revising like that for all my three subs. come on man...error yi n grace...give me some advice! really will appreciate it. =)

guess i better come online more often to check my tag. Lest come kaobai pple come anyhow clone pple again.

went to shit on 22 oct 11.38am...

wth. not in the bestest mood now and come online see my tag board kena bombed by some kaobei pple. anw...whatever it is...ya not in the bestest mood now. nowadays. ay. decided to study damn hard. suddenly damn motivated. guess it's the same reason that motivated my fren to work so hard. anw, i have lots of unspoken tots. shall not type it out. it wun be in the kindest manner if i did.

went to shit on 21st oct 7.16pm..

feeling damn stress over today. hope everythign will turn out fine,

went to shit on 10 oct 6.30am...

Feeling much much better now...compared to yest. thanks to pple who really showed concern n reaffirm my stand that i shld drop. yep. the feeling of loserish shld be out of my mind now...it is...and i hope i wun feel that anymore. grace is such a dearie...for ONCE i feel so happy that she is in spore. was feelign so shit yest morning n wanted to msg yi...but she was out...out of spore. luckily there was grace...thanks a lot...lubchiu too! =)

anw, i shld refrain from using words like fuck in my blog. reading what i typed yest...i feel so crude. i often say it. but ya, feel that it looks out of place in blogs. ya, besides the pt that i jus read someone's blog n it was full of fucks. aye. i dono what i am thinking now. it jus feel so different to be a three-subber overnight.

think god arranged farid fadzry n daniel to come back to school today. like of so many days, they chose to come back today. yepz...saw them in teh band rm, told them i dropped. daniel n fad immediately started to engage me in the three-subber kind of conversations. yep, no doubt they did encourage me, but liek what fad said...teh only thing is i have lost the 'glamour'. aye, whatever it is, my mind is more firm bout the whole issue. glamour or not, what can i do now but jus to work hard for my three subs. yepz. anw it was rather funny to see their reaction when they heard grace was in law. like WHAT?!?! hahaha. immediately they started saying how 'cool' is it that the two fiercest, damn niao, damn whatever girls from band are in law fac. ya, meaning shellen n grace. who else. haha. advice to those who are thinking of taking law, better not...lest u meet the two of them.

before i go, wanna thank this damn lame fren of mine. always tries to cheer me up whenever i am down. the past few days were shit for me. but she was always there to cheer me up and make things right for me. thanks a lot. yepz. without u, i wld be like damn screwed up now. yepz. =)

went to shit on 7 oct 9.40pm...

i dropped my bloody fm. today. ya today. what a fucking stupid decision that i had to make. was damn bloody emotional in the morning. din manage to make my way to school. dropped by to get some comfort. it was good. managed to pick myself up. made my way to school soon den go look for the department that in my opinion is screwed up. ya screwed up in the way that none of them have faith in me. whatever the fuck. i have nv ever come across teachers who are like that. this is my FIRST time. miss low had bloody faith in me. from two D7 to 2 A1. whatever. damn pissed cuz all they can say is how to get from a F to an A? the pt is i know i bloody deserve it tis round, but how bout other pple scoring Fs and Os too for their subjects? Scoring 2Os 2Fs etc whatever...? ISn't it worse den me? i ain't doing meaningful comparisons now. and i m not trying to make any pt. jus pardon me for being so fucked up today. the only concern now is my econs. how am i going to get a fucking A for econs. it's so hard to score. it's really damn hard...

anyway, realised that i am irritated with some pple out there. it's rreally irritating to have them ard u making so much noise. nvm, i will do my usual shit and jus walk away from whoever (if i do have teh chance). maybe i am just not in the best of mood today. whatever the case, jus hope tmr will be a better day eh.

Ok...and i realised another fucking thing. it is getting damn fucked up every day. every passing second, minute whatever. i hope i can stop it. but i know i can't. at least in teh near future. whatever.

Luckily i read this article few days ago, bout how this mother felt when her son whom she brought up for 15 yrs committed suicide. when i read it, felt it was damn selfish of him to do it. ya luckily i read it, at least i know the consequences of me going away. luckily i know, it stopped me from doing fucking stupid stuff yest n today. what can i do? i can only cry. what a fucking crybaby i am.

went to shit on 6 oct 11.25pm...

i feel neglecteddddddd. blah.

went to shit on 3 oct 11.11am...

i m such a humji not to post my previous entry up. haha. i mean i did post it up but deleted it...cuz why? i was so hum. so lucky those two pple who read it...checked the visit's history, only yi and a certain person who used singtel managed to read it before i deleted it... so hey to yi n whoever it was, don say k, haha doubt u understood what i was writing anw. haha. okie whatever. on a happier note...it's the mugging season again. oh man, have been waiting for it. So happy that it's here. ergh. anw, results shld be CDEF. C for phy, D for maths, E for econs and F for fmaths. whatever lah huh...don wanna look back alr. Whatever shld be said n felt by me have been said n felt alr. This wk has been the most disgusting wk i have ever led since pre-prelim days. Next wk is a brand new wk. Ya, whatever it is, i m not going to look back.

i have been having this weird tot. has been going round my mind for the past few days. it's rather unbelievable (to me). oh well, all i can say it's just weird. k k gonna go welcome my father home. haha. take care ppleee...

went to shit on 2 oct 6.11pm...

Hey...today's 19 sept. heh. my birthday. Supposed to be studying now but i jus have the itchy feeling to blog...especially after what had happened in the past 24 hrs. Ya...had a damn memorable birthday. I was all prepared to mug during my birthday...ya and maybe will have celebrations after exams..i mean prelims wad. somemore tmr four freaking papers. Man...all my frens are mad. really super mad. ok...here's wad the sup man.

Took a nap yest from 8pm to 10pm. 11 plus...received a call from Eugene yap who kept saying that he cant celebrate with me cuz of prelims. Suspected something cuz he kept askign me not to be sad but the background was damn quiet so conclusion-he was at home. Received msg from adeline chan who sounded damn suspiciously high. Ok i DID suspect something but she was using her mum's phone so couldn't be out. Received msg from jacinth liew who said sorry again cuz she have ta mugged for prelims. DEN she stop replying me. ya...so it continued till 12am. when eugene yap suddenly msged me to open the door. of coz, i super don believe...until i went to teh door smelt something burning, peeped thru the shit hole n realised there was a cake outside. chionged to wear my bra den open door, there were mahjong tiles forming the word happi bday n the cake whose candle was still burning. N there was no one. seriously, i tot it was only eugene yap. so searched high n low for him, den realised stupid j was with him. and ya...i was super shock. they like have no exams la. ok was super at a loss. haha. den they came my house to play mahjong. played till 2plus la den slept.

Ok woke up at 10am. den both of them say must go home mug alr. so i sent them to lrt station. saw them tap their freaking ez link card. Ok tot end of story. went home bathed, was preparing to start chionging econs alr. den suddenly, a cake was delivereed to my house, no name nth but a stupid receipt. wha lau, den called j to ask her whether she knew who sent it. i knew she knew. anw, she refused to tell me. so fine...put down teh phone with her...short while later, ong jianwei called me to open teh door. den i opened, den he started telling me he likes me. HAHA. i m so sure la. ran up to eleventh floor to see who was with him man...no one. den walked teh whoel floor, no one. den suddenly see two freaking heads popped out. ran there. ya stupid j and eugene yap. kao. totally at a freaking loss la. tot they went home alr lol. my immediate reactoion was they have no papers tmr ah?

Ok, so tot end of story, walked into the house for a while, den came out to ask them to go in..and when i went out, kao...i shocked another time la. super chao headache. my head was sooooo pain. vanessa n adeline chan appeared. ok, i was like...they tmr chao no paper?!?!? Ok so went into the house to cut cake...den all of a sudden, some idiot came knocking my door. chao open door n chao see aprilyn chan. i super no words alr. my head was SOOOO pain la. they like damn free la. aiyo...i was so super touched....they liek sacrificing their mugging time to come all the way to my house...aye...i kena shocked like FIVE times! aye. seriously kena shocked. okk here;s the six of them.

Okok, have said my words of thanks alr. seriouslt, no words can express how i feel. haha, tot everyone are muggers. apparantly not. haha. anw, thankss a lot guys...=)love u all!!! Of course, not forgetting those 40 pls pplewho wished me..thanks for remembering. =) love ya all too!

went to shit on my birthday. =)

screw the prelims.

I totally blanked out during yest's maths paper. fuck it. i can blame no one but my freaking self for being so stubborn...thinking that the strong me can take teh paper with relative ease even without sleeping for 24 hrs. I wanted to cry after that...but could find no place in the school to cry. Everyone around me was smiling...discussing what and how bout teh paper...telling one another how many marks have been deducted alr. Yeah...i blame no one but myself again. I have another paper to go in another twenty hrs. It's my only last hope. i have nv ever pass stats before...to pass tmr its a result of me mugging for it...to even get high marks will be a miracle. (i jus cant wait for the hellish period to be over.)

SO excitingggg!!! haha!! ice ice ice baby! *winks at both bro n sis. so gonna be a designer next time. seriously, the excitement is damn f overwhelming. cant wait for evil fren's bro's baby to come too. hahaa. anw, i got the lime green not the blue. =)

Woah...i am high. FOR NOW i guess. hahaa...also dono why. and i am visiting the blogging site for teh second time in a day! woah...means i am blogging twice means now u are seeing the second entry for today. ok i am damn lame.

went to shit on aug 26 10.50pm...

Hey...now using the com at mac's airport. damn fast. anw, jus had phy prac. dono how to feel about it...seems like i got most of teh readings correct but the way of gettign them seem a bit wrong...and if i were to add all these 'a bit wrong' together...it will be then a total screw-up. For instance...i din use single resistors or resistors connected in series. I had three parallel arrangements. ergh. and i din use the 5 sig fig to do my calculations. blah. feeling soooo blah. Anw seet blasted teh late-comers...luckily i came in 1 min before he blasted them.

Have been feeling something about something. i dono what is it. haha...i think i am up to freaking no good again. oh well...

went to shit on my phy prac day 2.30pm...

Woah, had gP today. The essay questions were like....HA. damn tricky. Nth on education, mass media, marriage and POVERTY came out. So freaking frustrating when choosing the questions. Aye, damn tricky. I hoped i wasn't trick again. Topic i did was "Selfish, soft, not hungry enough for success as compared to the previous generation." Discuss the implications of this statement on Singaporean youth. I have a tingling feeling i wrote out of point after hearing what zongwei said. Sigh...jus hoping i can pass lah. And the examples i gave were all hypothetical...really hope teachers like domch wun mark my essay since he hates hypothetical examples. Aye...praying man...Compre was quite tough. Doable..but still tough. Aye...Nvm nvm...still bout 11 more wks to my A level GP paper. Mug mug muggggg.

Hey yi, u gave me the cookies n the chain thingy lah! haha teh cookies were like my favourite! Anw...i realised ur birthday has made a permament mark in my diary...wonder who wrote that down in my diary. aye...u seem to be leaving n not leaving. man...take a break from work and catch up with EVERYONE before u fly off lah k. work work work....must rest sia. It was a dumb question LAH k. Two of us? who who??? normal.

went to shit on 23 Aug 11pm...

happy birthday yirong! heh. hope u had a great birthday. may be suffering from serious blogstipation now but still, guess it's worthwhile to come here today to blog. haha. i owe u one k! u gave me nice pressies last yr...so yep...i owe ya one! =) take care n enjoy urself before u fly off to uk. :( will miss ya! heh. and ya, u can see my super ugly handwriting. hahaa...ya so u rock for once...ya, jus for today. haha. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

i hate linear spaces, linear transformations. The whole damn freaking bloody shiit chap on linear equations. It's teh suckiest chap i ever studied. I know nuts and i know nuts. freak teh shit out of the chap and everything and everyone who is related to the chap.

Heyyy...not going to blog. jus wanna drop by to say a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to thesie! happy birthday to ya girl k. have fun over the weekend. I din forget ur birthday. It's just that u msged me first. haha. Yep. =)

went to shit on Aug 5 10.53pm...

i must be suffering from blogstipation. Don't really know what to blog bout. my sch work? nah...it's drowning me. my life? nth much great happening nowadays. only aprilyn's concert tis saturday...looking forward to hanging out with the usual pple again (a temporary escape from doin mech).

I had a dream just now. it was so real. i felt very happy and relaxing. It was a dream suited to the environment man. Even the aprilyn factor was put into consideration. Ha.

Life's boring now. Oh well.

went to shit on 28 July 9pm...

I will always respect u for fighting all the way. I hope it is better now for u as u r relieved of all the pain. Really hope that u are happier now. You are wanted back by God. He will have plans for u surely. Take care xianliang...no matter where u are. I hope the best for you.

Hey people, want to remind u to forget all about the unhappiness and stuff that u might have with other people. Ya, jus forget it. Life is really very very fragile. I have witnessed it with my own eyes. Ok, maybe u won't understand the feeling until u see it with ur own eyes. But trust me, after u have experienced it, u will jus regret it totally. Jus forget all the unhappiness and get on with living a more fufilling life...instead of mugging, quarreling, whining and complaining 24/7. Anw, it was really really painful to see all my close friends crying their hearts...ya...nv have i seen all of them cry. Yiling is right...(by her)you know how we never make time for people? claiming that there's an upcoming test, homework and what have you nots? on this day, everyone came together. as someone who cared. it was awesome to see everyone again. but, why under such circumstances?...i really agree.

went to shit on 27 July 12.49am...

i am so sick of tryign to tag my board n realise i cant for what reasons i dono. Ergh. Anw...really not in the best of mood now. Really hope God will answer all of our prayers. This thing has hit me real hard in the face. We really gotta treasure whoever is out there and ya made me realised results is not everything. Whatever out there is not everything. And ya, ling u r right, what's fair anyway. nth's fair. ok i shan write fucks in my blog. God will answer our prayers. I thank God for answering our prayers. God will guide us all through this. I hope tmr will be a better day. It will be.

went to shit on 25 July 11.59am...

Yo...tis week has been extra fine for me. haha. dono what i mean also but gee, feeling happy that i have done up the more recent tutorials though i still cannot engage in my classmates' intellectual conversations bout mech 13.2 today(which i gave it a miss). Now my stats seem to be in a more messy situation than my mech. And ya linear space...someoneeeeeee out there pls explain to me. Dearest fren of mine always bang seh me (Jiting), and talking bout her, she really din lend me her stats 15 n mech 12. aye whatever man! Haha, anw, had a good time at fm r with kris. She is so funny. haha. And lynnette happily let me draw her hand. Henna tatoo man...i am damn pro at it. haha. Really don wanna go school tmr...it's so tempting to skip sch tmr. Oh well, i shall go sch to see my crazy classmates. haha.

Ok on a MORE serious note...haha, opps...okok had a talk with someone before phy prac. I really dono how to describe how i feel now. Everyone is right...i am just feeling numb bout everything and maybe tmr i will know how to feel. Everyone is telling me it will be a great blow to them if they hear it. Hur...ya, maybe i don feel it now. But hopefully i don feel anything at all later, tmr or whenever. But i know i teared during phy prac. Fortunately i managed to get all my readings this time without any apparatus hitches, so that got me into a better mood. Actually, i feel quite relieved and happy now knowing what actually is going on instead of knowing nth. haha. Oh well, whatever the case is, my fren will be my inspiration for now. Hmm, i remembered what i wanted to say.. i really feel disappointed and shocked at the mockery n lying that have been going ard. maybe not 'have been going' since i don really care what is going on now, maybe 'had' would be a better tense. To put it in simple chinese...wo3 bei4 xi4 nong4. Ok, still i have to emphasize i am actually ok with whatever some1 told me. Yep. don be silly lah. blame u for what.

OKKKK....now for the moment...i got 52 for my gp!!! *claps*...DAMN high right. kao. I just knew that my gambling compo was out of point. Aye...whatever lah. haha. and i got 31 for fm right...there will be a fm test for those who scored 58 below. and for pple like aprilyn n sam...go away man!!! haha. aye...i have gave fantastic names for my frens nowadays. Like mugger soh, mugger koh (applies to teh thinner one)... hmm, when will i ever call myself mugger wong man. haha.

Okok, i am being damn not funny. haha. okok, take care pple...don mug so fast...wait for meee...

went to shit on 22 July 7.05pm...

Hey...i am still alive (thankfully). Anyway, life's been quite fine for me, though i am struggling to keep my emotions away from the public eye. It is a struggle, and hopefully i will be able to handle it fine each day. Anw, updates on what happened this week first.

Thursday went to the movies with april n soulmate. Soulmate treated us with his winnings. Anw...Supersize me was quite good. Though it was quite boring initially, it got very interesting after that. Had a very very great time over dinner. Like so relaxing. Hope to go out more often ya? haha, and thanks for peiing me home. Mug hard hard, prove those pple wrong k. haha, u can do it. =)

Friday went dinner with my two lovable seniors (as what i named them in my phonebk). Anw, had a very interesting time again listening to their crappy conversation. After that had a very good chat with yi...i realised i will miss them lots after they leave. sigh. like no one will be there to hear my nonsense. oh well. come back soon after u all leave k k.

Saturday went for swo concert. Sigh...Gave sam's house a miss. Really hope they din have that much fun cuz i missed all of that!!! SIgh...i bet they did...ALL of them went. Argh. Jiting went. so i expect her to tell me ALL bout it on Monday...stuff like how fun it was without me around. Ok i jus have to say this...EVEN alphis n bl went. urgh. Aye...Ok...shall stop mourning over it. NO ONE BETTER tell me bout it. (sigh) Okok...anw, swo concert was not bad. The band was very good. They played some pieces that vj will nv ever play it well. Damn nice. Ya, after that went supper at our usual place. Catch up with tim and hc...And i finally knew what aprilyn was up to. Ya, had a crappy time catching up with them...really hope our plans will materialise. And yes, i wun bang seh.

Okok...Need to go pack my room now...i STILL haven pack my room. Better pack or i will nv get down to doing my econs tuition hw.

On a sidenote...feeling rather down these few days. Thanks to those people who managed to keep my spirits up. Haha... ya especially my classmates. Yep. Oh well, and to those pple who have listened to my crap the past few days. Ya...okok...i am off! Take care pple! mug mug mug...don mug till u burnt out!

went to shit on 18 july 1.44am.

Yesterday's outing was very relaxing and fun! haha. I wouldn't say its a class outing since the number of people who went was only 8 but that is about our class size alr. haha. anw...sentosa was damn crowded. No net to play ball towards the afternoon. Settled for teh little island across the bridge. Sun-tanned, made a few jokes out of jiting, played ball, swam, pda, talked cock, talked bout who's going uk n us...etc. Fun sia...and no need to worry bout anything (for now) except for gp presentation. After sentosa went back to school for tsd performance. Started at 7 den ended at 11. Almost died-ed cuz was feeling so dizzy. Still, luckily pulled myself together to stay for the last performance which was Nicole's performance. And luckily i stayed. She was fantastic. So were the rest of the tsd pple..I like all the dances. Damn cool. haha. Overall it was quite good except for one or two which was damn boring. So much for Ah Ling.

I have been dreaming of this particular person recently. Like almost everyday. And teh dream is always about the same. Its about THAT thing. Guess its just something that hasn't been done in real life that's why i am constantly dreaming of it. This reminds me of what fong yh said when i was in sec3...if u dream about someone...the probability of that person having teh same dream as u is like damn high. So for instance if u dreamt bout some class gathering where u see pple like yiling (haha) in ur dreams, go ask her if she had the same dream. haha. most prob she wld have. YA...basically, what fong yh said was all bullshit lar. i m sure our dreams serve as meetign places lar. haha.

i believe

Have you ever you ever reached a rainbow's end
And did you find your pot of gold
Ever catch a shooting star
Tell me how high did you soar
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that you're awake
Cause the magic that surrounds you
Will lift you up and guide you on your way

I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
See I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally yeah

I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart
Overcome any obstacle
Won't let this dream fall apart
See I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe yeah

I can see it in the stars up in the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally I believe
Yes I believe

Ohh Yeah

Love keeps liftin me higher
Liftin me higher
Love keeps liftin me higher
I said love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me
I said Love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me higher
Said love keeps liften me higher
I said love keeps liften me high

Nice eh this song.

went so shit on 12 July 6.00pm

I realised there are some people in this world who always act as if he/she is involve in everything when he/she has zero business in the issue. And my tolerance for these people has come to an end. I have tolerated enough. I have also realised there are just some insensitive people out there who talk bout other peoples' flaws when he/she possesses them as well. And yes, you can go on talking about all my flaws and stuff, but let me remind u, u r no better. I remembered earlier part of this year, A and B were criticising you for spreading stuff about them, ACTING as if u knew what actually happened and ACTING as if u were part of the story. I kept quiet cause i wanted to save u some face. Oh well, now that u r doing it so frequently, i jus want to tell u straight in the face to quit acting as if u know everything. It's very irritating u know. And ya, u think by acting as if u know everything will affect me? Let me tell u...it did in the past cuz i felt pissed at whatever u told me, but now...it doesn't anymore. At most i will just walk away. ya. So u can continue acting like u are part of everything when u have zero business in it. As long as our paths don't cross anymore it is fine with me. Just don't come do it right in my face. As i have said, my tolerance has come to an end.

Besides these pple who have irritated me this whole wk, my wk has passed by very smoothly. Went school for five days and am very proud of it. Passed my physics test, though the marks are quite low still...feel quite ok cuz at least i passed and i spent only 48 hrs studying it. Din get an A for maths...which i was very disappointed with. Spent many many days studying it...ya...nvm nvm...shall work harder for prelims. I got 31 for fm. I think the way i studied for fm was wrong. I studied hard but din study smart for it. That's why i couldn't attempt the questions...Sigh, nvm, gonna work hard for prelims. As for econs...my essays are a total flop. Guess i had better start reading my notes and stop depending on my tutor. He can help me to be consistent in work...but i guess he can't help me score well. I need to put in my own effort too. Anw, congrats to power jac sia...ur physics rreally power. haha.

Feeling very sick still. Had blueblacks appearing on my hands yest night. mother was so freaked out. She started looking for the symptoms of bird flu. haha. relaxing. iw un die young lar. Anw, have been experiencing sudden hot and cold. Like now i am feeling damn cold. Then later iw ill be perspiring like mad. Have been sneezing blood out. Guess i am too heaty. All the late nights and drinking of milo. Hope i will be ok before tmr man.

Okok, i have uploaded the pics of the outing on Monday. not bad ah, quite efficient right. going town later to watch the basking...take care pple!

went to shit on 10 july 11.20am

A BIG SIGH. SIGHHHHHHHHHHH.

fren misses fren a lot a lot. bleh.

went to shit on july 6 10.51pm...

Hey! i think fax eugene n james are the funniest guys i ever met. haha. especially dear fax. totally love the way he reacts to whatever we say. haha. and that's the ONLY time when he really have to listen to what i say and not suan me. haha. Anw, today's outing was a blast. Though kena conned by miss conner who went to wild wild wet for the forth day...it was still very fun. haha, maybe cuz of the pple who went ba. stupid conner shld have come lah! Anw, morning din meet the rest at 9am cuz of the MANY pple who woke up so late. (anw damn sad greece won. ergh...) okok...den we all met up at harbourfront at 12 plus? May may is damn damn damn pig. Ate two packets of fries and twenty piece nuggets. Like so much lah. haha. She kena suanned like shit there (thanks ah may may, or i will be the one...haha). Den reached sentosa at bout 1 plus...den stupid rain have to come. Aye, we played ball in the rain till the rain was like chao big. den me and april danced the qi dao wu ha. ya, rain stopped den very nice weather. Played ball with all the girls. the guys played ball with zurong daojie n pengyu who were there too. Damn funny, aprilyn suanned may like shit. Really pei fu may lah. haha. zong wei shld be ard lol. den it will be more fun.

Anw...left sentosa quite early...den went chinatown. Eeeks...van n eugene went to talk pic with this python lah. the thingy felt so yucky lol...yucks...haha den we walked about for one hr then came home...ya...reached home at bout ten plus. Aye...today really damn fun. haha, ok maybe its JUST the guys. ya THE guys. and of cuz may may. haha. woah must mention xiuting power ball lah. she is really good at beach ball lol. haha. of cuz van the shan-ka-ness. Oh ya, reminded me of the bend-down-properly-to-pick-up-ball incident. ya...ok sian diao, tmr sch start. tmr is tutorial day. tmr morning have ta go sch early to do tutorial. grrr.... okok shall go have a nice sleep now. tmr busy busy dayyyy...take care guys. especially fax. hahaaa...

fren misses fren a lot.

went to shit on july 5 11.33pm...

Hey...damn long nv blog alr. haha. whole june mugging for exams. just had my one whole week of exams. anw, shall talk bout it after i get back my results. totally no comments now. but i just feel good cuz i did study and if i din do well, haha i will still feel ok lah. not as jia lat as last time.

Anw, damn bo liao...uploaded all my class fotos. as in really class fotos...those appear in sch mag one. oh well, jus scan in lol...ya, i know i damn bo liao to rather upload these fotos than the others...haha. others as in fotos dating back to musicfest. aye, i m jus plain lazy. dono why that time also feel so sad seeing all these fotos. EVEN THOUGH they are only class fotos. haha. Was so tempted to upload the prom ones too...but i think i will jus be killed by many outside. haha. right miss mamasan loo.
soulmate has been damn souly nowadays. haha, damn touched u so souly. oh well, stay souly lah. haha. must go out k k. =)
okok, ccurrently feeling damn aye how to say...paranoid. ya paranoid. super paranoid. does anyone know how to get rid of this feeling. aye. damn xin ku lah. super cannot stand it. ya...it has been getting me into lotsa mood swings. okok...but mood swings din happen nowadays cuz i ATTEMPTED to control them. ya and i did. mood swings in the past. now i know caused by me being too paranoid. but then again, what if it is happening, den i am not being paranoid what. ok. shall stop it. will force myself to stop all this nonsense. been confiding in a little book of mine. haha. really going back to the old traditional way of writing out your thoughts. it has a soothing effect on me totally. oh well.

fren misses fren.

went to shit on 1am july 4th 2004